Miles’ love letter to Bella

“The worst week of our lives”

Written in 2015 - The easiest way to get hurt, and the fastest way to be healed, it will eat away at your heart, or bathe you in sentimental riches. It's the pinnacle of human emotion it can stretch beyond comprehension and break down perspective, the only thing that can form a bond between strangers strong enough to last a lifetime. Some need it so badly that they will be hurt again and again just to feel it for a moment others chose to try and find it in the every day encounter but I was afraid of it all.

Happiness is already impossible to hold on to so why gamble. This was the question I asked my self as I stood at the face of a cliff. Fog to thick to see ahead I was accompanied by two females, on my left stood an old blind woman her back was hunched and her eyes were grey and murky her name was faith. On my right stood a young girl with bright eyes and a soft smile her name was hope. They told me I needed to jump, that if I trusted them I would be okay. Almost every day for about a week (that week) I would imagine myself in this situation but every time I did I never jumped. I new I had to confront this feeling in a place other than my own head.

So I went back to where this all started, you Bella Bishop. Here I was and there you were we both new what we wanted and how badly we wanted it but were too afraid to take it. And we never did take anything because we gave it to one another and shared a love a kiss. A kiss that made the gears in my head click together and tick like a clock that hasn't worked in years, like the ends of the wires in my body were re woven and charged me with an emotion a feeling to strong to really understand but a good one none the less. If I have learned anything it's that it doesn't matter how much you have loved when you have loved or how you love but who you love.

So I ask myself who do I love...I love the only woman who can hug me and embrace me with enough intention to me make me forget were I am to take me to a different place a better place just for a moment. I love the only woman who can caress away my troubling thoughts and sooth the constant chatter in my head enough to put me to sleep. I love the only woman who can humble me in the face of my most stubborn opinions.

I love the only woman who can love me with a passion fiery enough to meet mine. I love you I have loved since moment I saw you and I love you even more now. It's only been a year but we have shared a thousand beautiful moments. What we have is bigger than me or you and its going places we can only imagine so all that I ask is that you take my hand and let this love thing do the rest.